I remember when I was younger, me and my best friend would make a list of "Guy Prerequisites" - preferences that we had for our future boyfriends (we did this in our preadolescence, I swear!) but I realize that even now at the ripe old age of 18, I am just as narrow-minded and picky- maybe more so- than when I was 11.  So kids, these are my updated pre-reqs: (I apologize in advance for being such a picky bee-yotch):

1. Funny: There are two things that I LOVE in guys, and a sense of humor is definitely one of them.  It shows confidence and just a "let the good times roll" attitude on life.  and i don't like being around super dramatic, serious people. funniness definitely makes a guy 10 times hotter.

2. Intelligent: 2nd thing I adore in guys.  especially because so many guys are stupid- no offense.  actually there are a lot of stupid people out there, guys and girls. you don't hafta be some smarty pants, but it's nice to carry a conversation with someone who isn't a total dumbass.

3. Creative: What can I say? I am a sucker for artistic types. Artists, Musicians, whatever.  I like someone who has that same need to express themselves as I do.

4.  Nice: Okay, for awhile I had this weerd thing where I was innately attracted to assholes/ "bad boys." Why? I don't know.  But seriously, I was repelled by "nice guys" and drawn to assholes.  I'm still working on it.  But i really need to find someone who will treat me well.

5. Straight-Edge: i'm flexible on this, but let's just say, I went out with some who had a drug addiction problem before, and well, I don't feel like reliving that.  and maybe this is kind of unrealistic, wanting a person who doesnt do drugs or smoke and keeps drinking to a minimum, but oh well. these are my preferences ;P  and i HATE smoking- GAG me with a friggin spoon! plus I used to have asthma.

Physical Preferences: This is where it gets shallow and superficial...

*i like boys that look like girls*really skinny, i'm talking malnourished-it's sick, I know, but i love the heroin chic look as long as he's not really on heroin* dark hair, light eyes*brunettes in general* long, scruffy, shaggy hair* tight girl pants* maybe eyeliner if he can pull it off* mohawks* favorite male body part: (no, not THAT body part, pervs!) hipbones, which according to one of my friends, only crack addicts have* pretty eyes* sweet smile* lanky, tall* hmm, that's all that I can think of now...

celebrity crushes at the moment:

1. Jared Leto: just saw Requiem for a Dream.  SO HOT. nuff said.

2. Scott Weiland (from Velvet Revolver and STP): Tattooed sweaty shirtless ROCK GOD.

some of my favorite quotes: (sorry if they're not exact, but you can't be so anal, people!)

"Dream like you'll live forever, live like you'll die today."-James Dean

"Art is sanity."- Louise Bourgios, sculptor

"You should wear what makes you feel good.  So if a guy doesn't like how you dress...NEXT!"- Betsey Johnson, designer

i know there are more..but it is almost 2am soo..excuse my brain

MY PARENTS ARE KICKING ME OUT! Yes, my parents are so sick of dealing with my shit, that they are, in a year, kicking me out, cutting me off, and sayonara, suckah! Don't let the door hit ya where the good Lord spit yah! I can't get too much into it, but basically me and my parents have very different perspectives and philosophies on life.  well, I always had a feeling I'd live the starving-artist lifestyle, but i didn't think it'd happen so soon.  I'll only be a starving art STUDENT! oh well, i'll look on the bright side...hmmm...FREEDOM!  wow, i'm really glad I got that job at Retro Retro!  and they pay above minimum wage-thank God.  fortunately though, i might have a place to stay next year for sure.  i prolly don't seem as flustered or flabbergasted as i should be, but I do get a case of the "mean reds" as holly golightly described in Breakfast at Tiffany's as when you're scared and you don't know what of, and they're worse than the blues because that's just when you're feeling lonely or fat and you're just sad, but the mean reds are horrible...  I guess i do know what I'm scared of...failure, my parents pointing at me and saying-ha! we told you so, we knew you couldn't make it.  WELL FUCK THAT SHIT! anywhoo, on a lighter note...

I saw Harry Potter, and Harry Potter rawks my world.  Except when I went with my friend, there were so many assholes and shithead there! And I'm talking about the kids and their moms! I followed my friend to a seat and this kid said "you can't sit there, i'm saving it." and my friend was like, "hey you said they werent taken" then the little shit said "well YOU should have spoke louder." FUCKER!  then my friend said "I HATE KIDS!" so i asked the lady behind him, who of course was related to him which i figured out later, and she said, these are taken and so are the ones behind us so don teven ask.  I, of course, called her a BITCH! very loudly. and she sed, "WHAT'd you call me?" and i ran. haha. good times.  I swear I am never getting married and having children for fear of being a bitter housewife whose only vacation is going to the movies for two hours, while wrangling her herd of unruly fuck-face children. 

Wow...It's insane how long it's been since I've written on this thing.  I think part of the reason is that I hate computers! and I never use them except for looking up shows, DLing music, email, horoscopes or school.  But since Hazel has been using MY new laptop every waking minute, I thought I might as well start writing on this again. I'm too lazy to go make a new account at myspace or livejournal.  oh well, no one really reads this anyway- I don't even tell people I have one, because if they know me, they probably already know what's going with me. 

Let's see...what has happened this past year- my first year of college- I feel so OLD!  especially since I found out one of my old classmates from elementary school is getting married! HE'S 19! It kind of makes me feel like time is running out, which I know is ridiculous, and I don't mean that I need to go find my future husband (I don't plan on getting married till I'm at least 30).  But more like...dood, I am an adult, I am not a minor (dammit I should've commited a felony when I was).  I could even be drafted next year!  There are so many things I want to do and see, such as:

1. TRAVEL: I'm taking baby steps. Me and Cristina went on a mini-roadtrip to Ventura last week to go to a Something Corporate concert/ taping for their DVD (I think we got on it!).  It was slightly scary because we both don't drive freeways ever, but she drove! Sure we got lost 30 min. into it and had to go back home and retrace our steps, but all in all, best time EVER! We cut in front of a couple of really nice girls- one was really drunk-haha.  I went up to her and said, "Hi, could we cut in front of you?" and before she could respond, I busted out a granola bar as a bribe. and TaDa! we're at the front.

Places I want to Go:

1. Santa Barbara: been there with family, but would like to go with friends

2. Joshua Tree: suprisingly, I really enjoy camping, and I think I'd like to camp there.

3. San Francisco: I keep hearing it is such a fun city, and I'd do all the cheesy tourist stuff like visit Alcatraz and the Golden Gate Bridge.

4.  New York: I'm almost afraid to go there because of one of two reasons: a) it'll be a disappointment because I expected too much OR b) I'll love it so much that I won't go back home

5. Japan: ever since I saw "Lost in Translation" and "Kill Bill" I am totally obsessed with the place.

6. Tibet: I want to meet the Dalai Lama.

"SAGITTARIUS: What do you want, Sag? This is the week to figure it out. Instead of accepting plans with three different guys, decline two of those invites. Instead, concentrate on the boy you like most. If you don't simplify now, you never will."

...wait- what three guys?? LoL...